Videos I Liked This Week

I didn’t do one last week because it was the first week of vacation, but don’t tell anyone…

So starting off with a great example of a quick, effective, anywhere work out. Like Jeff says in the video – lots of people think they don’t have the time, the equipment, the whatever to work out but really it’s an excuse. What they maybe don’t have is the knowledge, what movements to do and how to structure a work out so here you go.


Also, people might not know how to test themselves and their fitness or that testing is important. And girl’s got me beat on pull ups so now I have goal to test, thank you very much.


I’m still trying to find my perfect running form and the work outs that will help build it so here we go.


And getting away from work out stuff let’s talk depression! Hurray!

In this first video the bit about Isolating is what got to me. I’m a solitary person anyway but I can tell when I’m isolating for depressive reasons. Depressed people are horrible to be around, I tell myself, everyone will get sick of my shit and give up on me, I fully believe. I know that hanging out with people would be good for me but I don’t push myself to do it because I’ll just mope or be desperate or whatever and ruin things, better to be alone. I tell myself. Unhelpfully.


And why trying to brainwash myself out of depression makes it worse…


And just to end on a fun note; Blaire White settles the trans bathroom ‘debate’ with humour and rationality.


Half Marathon Results and Report

Time: 1:33:35 (first place was 1:15:22)

Place Overall: 20/329

Male Overall: 18/179

30-39 Category Place: 6/49

So on paper that’s a pretty good race. My best HM yet. Yet I’m not thrilled with it.

There were no highs or lows like this race last year but I felt like I was pulling my body along for the first 10k and the last 5.

There’s a misalignment in my running now, I don’t know where but last year I was just giving a solid effort at all times and digging deeper and deeper and always finding the reserves I was looking for.

Now part of me is always saying would you go! to another part which replies I am going! and the first says no, faster! and the second part replies I am going faster!

But the story of the race is really simple. Having learned my lesson I stayed behind the 90 minute pacer thinking I’d overtake her around the half-way mark and that did not happen. Her lead kept increasing and I was just not in my zone for the first quarter of the race, as usual.

I ended up trading back and forth with a black guy who had great form for just before the half to just before the finish. He slowed down up and down hills and at aid station so I’d get ahead and he’d overtake me on the straights. We hugged like super old friends at the finish line. This is a runner thing but I think concert-goers get it too, a pure unspoken camaraderie with a total stranger.

There was no dark tunnel this time. It’s cool running the exact same course as last year because I remember how I felt at K17 running over the exact same steps. It’s when I coined the term dark tunnel for myself and started believing that K17 is where the worst devils live.

Not so this year. I knew I was finishing strong…ish. I tried to dig deeper but my body was like no, we’re on budget and we’re not spending one cent over or under.

It’s a product of racing so much which was my stated goal from last year, to race more and take the bad edges off. I remember saying I need to race more so the pressure doesn’t shake me, the unexpected becomes expected… and that’s what’s happening.

Now I need to work on not being too professional, too organized. Get back to giving it all and digging deeper to break through and get into the white tunnel.

This race last year I came out the brutal despair when I saw the clock and still had time and I started pushing and things started going white but the line was right there and the clock was inching up to my PR and I could still make it… I crossed the line panting and babbling and high-fiving. It was amazing. I went from thinking I’d race once a year and this is awful to thinking I need to race again as soon as possible and as much as possible.

This year was like, k solid time, improvements marked, nutrition taken care of. And we were home 3 hours after we left and it’s like it wasn’t even a break from normal life.


How Working Out Can Get Harder As You Get Smarter

So yesterday I wrote about my suspicion that caffeine pills make me feel ill during workouts and what I might try going forward.

Last night, so I wouldn’t forget, I cut a pill in half and left it out for myself.

And I dutifully took it, waited what I thought the time between ingestion and work-out was yesterday and started swinging my warm up kettlebell.

Then, mentally frozen, I stopped. I haven’t eaten anything… I thought. Then the flood – what did I eat yesterday before the work out, I know I got a lot less sleep today than yesterday, and I’m not doing the same work out…

This is a terrible experiment.

Working out when you’re a noob is so easy, you just do it. All of the sudden it’s I didn’t eat a banana and 3 supplements 51 minutes ago, the work out is ruined!

You can go down so many dietary and exercise rabbit holes that you feel like everything could be fatally wrong. Like this meme, you vibe it.

this meme

The important thing to remember is to generally be going in the right direction and don’t get hurt and you’ll be better off at the end of each year than you were at the start. Don’t try to be optimal at everything all the time, no one thing will kill you.

Do experiment, do investigate, do immerse yourself in the knowledge and discussion even if it’s not your sport but ultimately remember that you’re searching for what’s best for you – not the official best thing in the world.

But also it wouldn’t kill me to track what I eat while intending to do a deliberate self-experiment.

On Caffeine Pills

A little history:

I drink a lot of coffee. I have two tattoos celebrating my love of coffee.

But I didn’t drink coffee on race days – for a nice comfortable stomach.

Then I saw a bottle of caffeine pills in the supplement isle and thought of course! And now here we are…

So I skipped coffee and had a 200mg pill before a training session one day – and coincidently we’d splurged and had huge bowls of homemade mac and cheese the night before – I felt gross during the run but I chalked it up to that and called the test a wash.

The next day I took one and merely went to work. No ill effects.

Race day I took one the morning and warmed up just fine, feeling amped. Then went off the start line and felt like I might throw up. Like I might need to throw up. I thought maybe it was a combination of nerves and the fact that I was going off the line a lot faster than normal because it was only 10k and I wanted to rip it up.

Got 41:47 btw, ripping it up confirmed but I felt shakey for 7 of those k.

Today I popped another one to prepare for a race Sunday. Race day routine every morning for at least 3 days out, you know it.

And I did a work out and part way through that work out that same sick feeling came back.

So here’s my totally made up unscientific hypothesis on me and caffeine pills: they don’t do anything until my heart rate gets up and then they kick in all at once.

I figure 200mg ain’t that much. It’s like one strong cup and I drink four cups a day.

But I don’t drink four cups at once. I realize I actually drink coffee pretty slowly. I drink half a cup, it gets cold, I top it up, I drink half a cup, I top it up, repeat.

– that could be the chorus of a song about my life –

And so over some hours I’ve had four cups. But not a crazy rush.

Lesson learned

Taper Week Advice: Get Your Relaxing Done Early

There’s a temptation when tapering for a race to relax a lot. There’s also a temptation to train right through and even panic-train and mess up your race. It’s a tough life, tapering.

But I’m going to talk about strategic relaxing because that’s a mistake I recently made. Hoping to be really fresh for a run I did a float tank and an infrared sauna the day before a race.

Bottom line: It screws up your movement patterns. You’re used to having some tension in the system, and if you strip it all away and get all loosey goosey (or worse relax one leg completely while the other is still holding some tension because it’s nearer to injury) then running feels weird.

That’s the last thing you want on race day. Really there’s a million worse thing on race but whatever…

Point is you want to get super relaxed 5 and 4 days out then start working out again 3, 2, 1. Keep the work outs light, fun, form-focused, but start getting some tension back into your muscles, it’s your normal.


Videos I Liked This Week

So I’m still following Stephanie Buttermore’s journey and you should too. At first I found it heart breaking that she was worried about people not liking her for gaining some weight but now I know what she’s talking about. She’s gained 17 pounds and I’m sure there’s some fucking douchebags in her insta comments out to let her know how it impacts them.

I hope she’s happy, healthy, and safe forever the end.


This core work out is awesome and I do it all the time now


and Running Experience again, just talking ’bout running.